:)jUst_mY_sTupiDitY(:

Well..

It’s the 3^rd day of
my 23^rd year

Thx to HIM for giving me
not-so-a-beautiful-life(heeyyy!!! (just kidding…))

Thx to Bunda for taking care of
me patiently…

I’m sorry for disapointing
you…this 23^rd year..i’ll try to mend it

Thx to Bapak for marrying Bunda,
that’s d cause of my existence:D

 

Still doing what I did in my 22^nd
year

Lazying around…

Doing a finger sport, like
playing game house, hehe…

Going to I-try-to-avoid place
just for d/l-in’ movie or anime

Improving my english by:

- 

Reading

manga

- Watchin’ movie

- Ngaskus, hehe…

Still don’t have a passion to
finish my final project >,<

Just what does it takes to make
me realize the importance of finishing that damn-it thing!!

Huaaahhhh!!!!!

 

Nma..just forget it…fufufu..

You know…

There r four feelings that u
cant erase in

ur

entire life

1. grateful

once
u r being help by other in

ur

hard time, u’ll always think that u owe him/her much unless u do something
that’s very important to him/her

(neee??
It’s ambiguous ru…if u use ‘unless’, then d truth is that this feeling can be
erased??just what d hell r u tryin to say?? (dunno…-_-‘)
)

2. guilty

once
u make someone really really had a hard time, u’ll always feel uncomfort
everytime u meet him/her unless u’ve got d “karma”(if u believe it).

(again…unless…ambiguous!!)

3. regret

once
u do something that has a fatal effect on

ur

life, u’ll always remember that(well..not a
bad thing, guess)

4. LOVE

Once
u love someone, altough u’ve already replaced him/her with someone else (it’s cruel to use ‘replaced’!! (well..whatever) ),
d feeling u had will always  remains in

ur

heart.

 

Ummh…

Some people say that there’re
three things that’s really hard to say:

1. I love U

Umm…not
really hard actually. Well…it might hard for

ur

1^st time, just need to pull

ur

courage together. But once u say it, eventough u r being rejected, it’ll be
easier to say it again laterJ

2. I’m sorry..

Huaahhh!!
Absolutely disagree!! Even most people say it frequently!! What d hell they’re
thinking ‘sorry’ is?? A ‘sorry’ must be said honest and straightforward, not
with a grin:D. and d most important thing is…don’t do it again!!

3. Help me

Well…for
me..it’s also not a hard phrase to say, hehe…(thx to u guys, sorry for always
bothering u, n I’m still here for bothering u more, kekeke…(oi..oi…sorry must be said with no grin!!))

 

For
me…the hardest thing to say is…

‘okay,
ruri…I forgive u’

The
hardest thing to do in my life is…

Forgiving
my self for doing those things…

 

Still
cant forgive my self..n it sucks!!!

Geez….

 

What
should I do??

What am
I suppose to do so that I can forgive my self?

 

Please….

This
is a very horrible feeling…….

 

 

 

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